It’s a part of my training as a therapist. I had to take mandatory psychotherapy myself before I was granted my PhD, and it’s normal. You need to understand what it’s like on the other side of that table, to be the one sitting or lying down on that couch to fully be able to attempt to heal another person. It’s an exercise in empathy but it’s also a way for you to exercise your own demons before trying to do so for someone else.

After that point, it becomes easy to separate the work from you but after my client spoke to me today I discovered that the things they told me were sticking with me longer than most. I found myself walking out of my office looking at people through his eyes and I couldn’t shake it. The things this patient does are wrong, heinous, and absolutely criminal but I just can’t help but be in his shoes after hearing what I’ve heard.

If I decide to go in and speak to somebody, where will the cycle end? I have to ensure that the cycle ends with me so I know I have a responsibility to cure this patient. An absolute cure. The fate of many is in my hands.

Dr. Bill Harvey